Thursday, July 24, 2014

"But what if I don't want to!"

"But what if I don't want to!"

I usually wake each day, open my eyes and breathe a sigh of gratitude. It doesn't matter if it's sunny, rainy or snow...
I open my eyes and think... I'm so happy to be free! Free to chose my day, free to choose who I let into my life. Proud of myself because I am strong and aware of things and people that are detrimental to me and I have the strength and power to choose to eliminate them from effecting me. Happy to be healthy and capable. And totally excited about life, knowing the best is yet to come!

Today I woke early, as usual... Sun is just coming up... Wide awake and completely rested. I stretched... And thought about running... I contemplated about my running things... It had been a few days since I ran... Was it all clean? Would I be able to find it all without waking everyone and could I sneak out before they all woke up? It was a yes to all... There wasn't any excuse that I could convince myself of to stay in bed. So I got up... Found everything in it's place, even my ear buds were hanging in the right spot (they get borrowed a lot).

What I thought was going to be a cool 60 ish kinda morning, turned out to be the perfect temp. 
The moment I opened my front door I knew I made a good choice to run... it's always a good choice... No matter what.
So why do I always have to contemplate it? 

Well, as grateful as I usually am, I got my wake up, reminder.
I stood outside of my Starbucks... We all have one:) it's whatever one is closest to you! I'm lucky to have mine a fifteen minute walk to Crocker Park from my house. So I stood there... As I stood there I couldn't help but notice an elderly man sitting with his car door open. My gut instinct was to ask if he was ok... He was only a few feet from me and I then realized he was in handicap parking. So I gave him a minute. He seemed out of breath... The same breath we so easily push in and out of our lungs everyday without a thought. He was taking a break. He had just wrestled his walker from the car and was contemplating wether to get out or not. I kept thinking I should ask if he needed help. But something in me said he may not be happy about needing help. So before I could ask, he propped himself up on his walker was up the curb heading toward me. I smiled and wished him a good morning. 

And then it happened...
He said it.... He said " Beautiful day for a run, huh!"
Ugh... Before I knew it I had answered "It sure is" with a smile... Feeling not so good about what I just witnessed and my quick, perky response because I could see in his eyes as he glanced at my running shoes with a smile that he remembered those days like they were yesterday... 

Little did he know... His effort and determination just to get out of his car for coffee this morning has inspired me to be even more grateful. To not want to lay in bed and contemplate my run... To lay my clothes out the night before... To not make any excuses for myself and to be grateful for every breath. He could of stayed in bed... Hell, he could of gone two blocks down the road and gone to the drive-thru Starbucks! He didn't. He got up, got out and that's what life's about...
No matter what, get up and get out!
I hope no matter what is going on in your life that you will get up and get out. Especially in our beautiful city! Cleveland has a gorgeous season of incredible weather. And most of the time your perspective from your window inside is far different than your perspective outside. Get some fresh air... Things look and feel so much better when you are outside!

Enjoy this glorious day!
Xo
Celeste❤️

P.s. Thank you kind lady at Starbucks for loaning me fifty cents... Mine fell out of my pocket while running!:0
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